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Karina Hoshikawa's avatar

This was a complete joy to read from start to finish. (Also "Hair" is an underrated bop.) From the moment I met you, your shine simply couldn't be ignored. You are so fuckin' one of a kind! Thank you for being yourself and making it feel okay to be beautiful, perfect, messy, all at the same time. You may be many things, but "dwindling" is not one of them, honey. <3

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Hilton Dresden's avatar

Karinaaaaa thank u so much I love u!!

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Annabelle Schwartz's avatar

Beautiful

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Hilton Dresden's avatar

Sweet annabelle.. ily

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Katrina Alonso's avatar

Hiii! I doubt you remember me, since we met all of one time? Maybe twice? But I interned at Out during your tenure there and even though we barely interacted, I was like “Oh fuck, they’re so COOL!” I’ve always thought your brand of fuck-you queer was absolutely gorgeous, and I still do. Thank you for claiming space for yourself! Wishing you all the beautiful things, always. Also, my embarrassing thing is that in the second grade, I was too anxious to ask my teacher to go to the bathroom so I peed my pants in the classroom and they had to send my little Catholic schoolgirl ass to lost & found to find a new uniform skirt. The only one they had was too big, and on the school bus ride home later that day, i tripped over the hem and flash the entire bus, including my crush :(

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Hilton Dresden's avatar

Katrina of course I remember u!!! Hope ur well and hahahahahaha I Peed myself at school once today, it was actually on an overnight school trip in snow pants and I sat in the pee for hours not saying anything and no one noticed and then I ran to my dorm room and took off the pants and never told anyone

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Hilton Dresden's avatar

Too* not today

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Stephen Griswold's avatar

Hilton! This is a wonderful article and so phenomenally open and honest. Glad you are on this journey of self discovery, you are a fantastic writer and person and talent. May you glow like the morning sun! Miss you, hope you are well! - gris

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Stephen Griswold's avatar

Oh and for a humiliating fact, I found a tick on my penis and had to get my dad to help me take it off so I had to stretch my flaccid penis like an accordion so he could go at it with a pair of tweezers.

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Hilton Dresden's avatar

Hahahaaahahahahahaha

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Hilton Dresden's avatar

GRIZZZZ I LOVE YOU ANGEL!

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Danica's avatar

Hi! We’ve never met, I found this article through queen Miss Peyton Dix. I just wanted to comment on how beautiful this article is and how beautiful you are. Living our truths is hard, confusing as fuck, and doesn’t help when you’re queer. While I’m not trans, a lot of this message resonated with my own sexuality and how I’m constantly like ?????? But any who, keep writing and keep being amazing I am a new fan gorl!!!

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Hilton Dresden's avatar

Danica thank uuu so much. I love miss Peyton and based on this response I love u too!

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wildcaprisun's avatar

I don’t really know what to say I’m not funny and I don’t have anything but gratitude for you in sharing this word vomit that has illuminated some of the darkest and heaviest nooks and crannies of my soul. So thank you and keep finding yourself and sharing with us it’s so special and needed and I love all these references I guess I need to catch up on tv?!?? Yay for being trans - non binary - queer - anything but what society wanted us to be !

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Hilton Dresden's avatar

You are beautiful. Thank u!!

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Autumn McCumiskey's avatar

I love you!

You are radically vulnerable and beautiful. You exude everything I look for in a strong and loving female friendship and you always have!

Also, don't tell anyone, but I also just recovered from an angry hemorrhoid and OOFDA...

Also, my boyfriend let me know that he is woken up by my farts almost every night.

Are those embarrassing enough? I've got more.

I miss you always sweet babe (but girl, I keep tabs on you) ;)

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Hilton Dresden's avatar

ohhhh babe this is exactly what i needed to hear. love you!!!!!

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Sam Schreck's avatar

loff you so much queen!! and that will never change 😘❤️🥰

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Hilton Dresden's avatar

lofffffff u!!!!!

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Sonya Schreck's avatar

Love you Hilty ❤️ Just be true to you, beautiful you 🥰

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Hilton Dresden's avatar

I love you Chica !!! Thank you!!

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Zoe Tyson's avatar

Thank you for sharing this Hilton, your honesty and vulnerability make me feel like being my most courageous self. I know we only met a handful of times when I was living with Cole, but you were always a real light to be around, and truly kind to me. Whenever I see you on the ol’ social meeds, I smile. Sending you love from LA!

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Hilton Dresden's avatar

Zoeeee you are such a glorious energy and I cherish the day I get to see u again in person!!!

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Alex Clark's avatar

I love you so much and am beyond proud of you

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Hilton Dresden's avatar

U my sister hoe!

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________'s avatar

there's so much power in vulnerability...this could spark a huge change....for the better, for the world

thank you for sharing your story

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________'s avatar

Wow!! you are so strong, this was an incredible read. How could someone make it past the first couple sentences and not stick around to the end?

Im fascinated by your journey...a truly touching story....I'm sure the people who don't know about this only say hurtful things because they don't know.

..you're the start of a revolution! helping people feel comfortable talking about their inner struggles - maybe enlighten them?

be proud of you, you're just the vessel...your soul shines however you like!!!!!

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Michelle Rahimi's avatar

I'm so happy for you girl! You are beautiful doesn’t matter what label you take... Life is short so do as you please! 🤤

Miss you 😘

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Hilton Dresden's avatar

miss you darling and thank you so much!

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Kristina Hill's avatar

I love you honey. Just love yourself. I am proud of you no matter who you are. ❤️❤️❤️❤️ You will always be my special baby.

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Hilton Dresden's avatar

Mama ur support means the world to me. I feel so loved and seen and understood. Loff u infinity times infinity infinity times

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Tom C J Brown's avatar

Sweet girl, so proud of you for finding and living your truth. Keep being you darling wonderful HER

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Hilton Dresden's avatar

Love you forever dear

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